Thank you guys!
I felt so stupid and like a failure yesterday…
I’ll post the story I told klodbird:
They were a bit late so I had to wait 20 mins but that was ok for me, however the result was a full office with the other ortho working with a kind and the assistants running around. It took me by surprise because it has always been calm when I was there. The assistant took me into the room that is a bit aside from the two other chairs and they had prepared the chair for bracing, all I could think was “What is happening now?! Why are these things there?!”.
My ortho was kind and gentle as always, he started to explain the first things he would try to do with my teeth and some of what was wrong with my teeth. One of the assistants came into the room and started to do some paperwork and do things so the chair was ready to be used. I was too afraid to ask if that was for me.
Don’t think he saw how afraid and uncomfortable I was, since I have been bullied almost through my whole childhood at school I’m kind an expert at hiding my fear, it’s an instinct I have when I’m scared and not feel comfortable people I’m with the people I'm with...
My ortho started to explain things but I could not get what he said because I had my focus on his dental assistant, was that chair for me? What is happening here?!
Since I’m very shy I don’t like to speak of my teeth or ask questions I think are stupid while other people than the dentist is there, I just get a block when other people are there. So all I wanted was to run, to get out… Could not manage to ask the questions I had or show him the picture I wanted to show him
. I just stood there and wanted to run.
Hearing the other ortho working on a kid right outside, seeing the dental assistant preparing the chair and all the scary things ready for use was just too much. Wanted to cry and I think my ortho saw this one time because I could see him watching me out of the corner of my eye. I wish I had a regular chair to sit on and not needed to stand.
When he asked if I wanted to do this, to put the brackets on and then the wire a week later I said yes out of fear (when I get scared I tend to agree to everything because I don’t dare to anything else), I thought it would be rude to say no if they have done the chair ready for me. Did not know what else to say
Luckily the chair was not for me because I got an appointment January 11th, which was a relief because it meant that I could enjoy Christmas without braces. I was too scared to say no so had it been my chair then I would have been a mess now...
When I left his office I started to cry… I wanted to talk the ortho about the B-day, what would happen (are we going to take pictures too? Put some or all of the brackets on? How long time? Both or just the upper jaw? etc), is his assistant going to do some work on my teeth, how much are we going to do that day? And I had some questions to him about my teeth and the treatment plan… I could not ask him anything, it all went black… I lost control...
I got my appointment in January and no way that I’m going to attend it, no way!!! Don’t want the same thing to happen to me again as it did today, it was horrible. No brackets are going on my teeth before I feel comfortable again